Thursday, December 31, 2009

Another Year Gone

I'm kind of glad 2009 is over and a new year is about to start. There were a lot of great things in 2009, but also some things I'm ready to leave behind.

4 more hours. And I plan to spend them putting Lucy to bed, eating some pizza and drinking some champagne with hubby, watching The Hangover (just purchased and not watched yet), and hopefully reading some before we watch the ball drop.
Nothing exciting, nothing loud.... and that's the way I like it.

In years past I would get out my journal and write a lot about what the past year held and what I hoped the new year would bring. But now that Lucy's here, most of my old hopes have come to fruition... and now I get to start thinking of new goals & dreams. Probably finding more time to write, and play piano... maybe another baby down the road?... we'll see. But this is definitely one day that I like to reminisce. I can't believe I've been out of college SO long. Crazy.
Time to go ring in the NEW! Happy New Year! And no, I don't think auld acquaintances should be forgot and never brought to mind... even though i love that song! Thank you Robbie Burns!

Tuesday, December 8, 2009

Theory of Equilibrium in Times of Stress

so i have a few crazy theories. i have no scientific data or evidence to back up any of my theories. once you read my Theory of Equilibrium you'll understand what i mean. :)

alright so i feel like when i get stressed out my brain moves crazy fast... trying to work through whatever's got me stressed out. and my thinking is going warped speed, but my body's still physically at normal speed. and i have a theory that everyone seeks balance, or equilibrium, in some manner.

there are those who, when stressed out, reach for alcohol. these are the people who want to forget their problems and stress. so if they reach for the alcohol, in an attempt to drink away their stress & problems, they are the people who want to slow down their brains. some people just want to slow down their brains until they are back to moving as slow as their bodies... and some people forget to quit drinking when they reach equilibrium (between brain & body) and get really drunk. obviously once they wake up or sober up, their stress is still there and completely un-dealt with.

then there is the second category of people. this is the category into which i fall. i belong to the people who, when stressed out, want to chew through their problems and stress until there is a viable, rational solution. even if the solution is just that i'm going to have to deal with the stress until it's worked out... i want to analyze my stress from every angle. so instead of alcohol, i reach for caffeine (coffee, in my case). because i want to speed up my body until it's just as frantic as my brain, to reach equilibrium, in order to work through my stress. i don't want to slow down until i'm done analyzing. so my solution for equilibrium in times of stress is coffee.

Now you see, i'm just trying to justify my over-consumption of coffee. But in truth, when i get stressed out i reach for coffee and i do think that's why. I don't want to forget my troubles, i want to work through them as quickly as possible.
No scientific data, no homework done. Just my silly theory. Sometime i'll write about my theory on infants. Not tonight. Tonight i have a pot of coffee waiting for me downstairs. :)