Thursday, September 2, 2010

being a Mommy

since i'm a stay-at-home mom sometimes my brain wanders. like about how my Christian beliefs and my mommmy-ness line up (or not so much).
for instance... i believe that God let his only son die on the cross for the sins of the world. ...God let his ONLY SON DIE on a cross for the sins of the world. Not me dude. i'm selfish... obviously He's God and i'm not *thank you!!* but there is NO CHANCE this happens if i only get ONE child. NOPE.

also the whole Abraham & Isaac story baffles me more everytime i think about it now. So they thought that Sarah was barren, then at 90 years old she has Isaac. Then Abraham is supposed to take Isaac to offer him as a sacrifice. Seriously? Are you kidding me?! I realize this was back when sacrifices were commonplace, but his only son from a wife he thought was barren?? Nope. And I know the whole story... I know Abraham didn't have to actually put the knife to Isaac and sacrifice him. I still say there's not a chance that's happening if I'm involved.

Makes me question my faithfulness a little. For me that's the one line you do not cross. Mess with just about anything and I can deal with it. You mess with my child. Nope. It definitely brings a whole new dimension to a lot of Bible stories for me. But it also makes me pray that I constantly remember Lucy is not MINE, she is God's and I get to raise her, teach her & take care of her for a short while.
Great is THY faithfulness, absolutely.

Wednesday, September 1, 2010

whine... whine... wine?

feeling very whiny tonight so i decided to focus a little bit of energy on a happy list for today. also pulled out my old happy list to try to remember other happy times too (if there are happy past & happy present then there will be happy future times too). 2 + 2 = 4.

happy list for today:
1. *finally* finished a mix cd i promised a friend

2. Lucy woke up very early this morning BUT came to snuggle in bed with me

3. i downloaded Paula Fuga's ep on iTunes and any music that involves Jack Johnson or his type of music is a happy thing

4. the weather here was gorgeous today! and i could enjoy it more because we're finally supposed to get a little rain tomorrow.

5. ...isn't that sad... that's where it ends for today... that is how whiny i am right now. seriously though, i dropped my birthday cake all over the kitchen floor tonight. a cake i specifically asked for b/c i was so excited to have cake. such a silly thing.

happy list past (#100-115 of one old list of 117):
100. colored fountains in lake sno-tip
101. wearing d's big oatmeal wool sweater
102. kurt (???)
103. playing piano
104. crazy stripe sweater from Gap/"butt-ugly" sweater
105. llama llama!
106. sitting w/Robert Sean Leonard on NYC subway
107. accidentally walking through movie set - Family Man with Nick Cage & Tea Leone
108. Fat Cats at Rutgers
109. seeing Life Is Beautiful at ft.wayne cinema center
110. Caribou Coffee with Carrie in Columbus
111. Clay Cafe in Columbus
112. 4-story Barnes & Noble
113. iced mochas
114. when i tell D about my current crush & she acts so happy she might burst
115. free postcards in NYC
See it's good to keep happy lists on an ongoing basis because i don't think until i read that again that i would've remember fun things like colored fountains in lake sno-tip. :)